Laroqsoqs: When love beckons to you, follow him

I'm on medication for a mental disability. Likely the most important thing to know because it takes priority over everything else. I have a selfish lifestyle that is aimed towards constantly improving yet often maneuvering within the limitations of this illness. I often fall short but consistently strive to be better and to grow and learn new things. There will be times where I have to shut down and take time to recover/stabilize, but despite this, I will always acknowledge and attempt to provide for the needs of those important to me. I am in the long and arduous process of overcoming this illness, and ultimately I have learned that I cannot do it alone. So here I am waving this vibrantly red flag in hopes that there is some tangible semblance of acceptance out here for those with mental health issues. I make a promise to myself for my loved ones that this illness is for me to experience and overcome, and while there is an inevitability that those who care for me will be affected by it, I will never give in to the point of making it a problem. It's my journey and those who walk with me in it will be uplifted and rewarded by the universe in the same way the universe rewards and uplifts me for each step I take.

I have a unique opportunity and skillset that allows me to help others in their own pursuits; specifically, I enjoy playtesting video games created by indie developers and creating wikipedia pages for their games. This is one thing I have found I can do well in the service of others and not be impeded by the aforementioned limitations of my illness. This helps me feel useful in my day-to-day life, providing a feeling of both joy and fulfillment. The goal is to be hired onto a small team that eventually finds success through the release of their game(s); games of which I helped playtest and improve through hundreds of hours of dedicated volunteer work. Nevertheless, volunteering my time to any given cause is likely going to be a constant in my life, as I have found the greatest sense of joy and fulfillment from it. This also means I have a relatively low income. So, it would also be important to know that a given model of a relationship supported by lavish gifts and adornments is not something I can play a part in. I make just enough for food, shelter, and to pursue my goals and hobbies. I am happy with my life, even though some may consider measuring my worth or happiness by my financial status~ I feel rich in spirit and in love. These I feel are greater gifts of which I can share abundantly. 

Otherwise, I enjoy making music. I recently got a MIDI keyboard and have been making some crude tunes with that. I also play around with a steel tongue drum; I am a percussionist at heart. Also enjoy listening to podcasts of all types; currently listening to several comedy podcasts including Ninjas are Butterflies & Kill Tony. There is also a podcast called Dream Team with Alice and Trent that I enjoy. Lastly, I have recently gotten into a podcast called Diary of a CEO but I'm pretty picky about which episodes I listen to; usually the science and health based ones. I also enjoy reading; my favorite authors include Khalil Gibran, Abraham Hicks, Ram Dass, & Richard Bach. My favorite musicians currently are Gorillaz, Fink, Young Jesus, How Great Were the Robins. I enjoy almost all types of music, overall. I also enjoy watching Anime a lot~ my favorite being Hunter x Hunter~ but I have an entire rating list of all the Anime I've watched that I'd love to share and rewatch with someone. My favorite film is called Upstream Color. I can't say I have a favorite TV series, but I definitely enjoy those too.

I am also a big nature lover and try to do my part for the environment by recycling as much as I can. I enjoy hiking a lot as well. I do collect Rocks and Crystals but usually give away more than I keep. I also collect pictures of cats and crop the images to be close ups of their faces which brings me unbridled joy. I would one day like to publish a novel. I write in all capital letters. I enjoy cooking and trying new recipes. and that's about all I can think of at the moment. Thanks for reading this far <3

Someone who is accepting and has a capacity for forgiveness. Someone who is not into politics. Somone who is spiritual but not necessarily religious. Someone who is independent. Someone who does not use jealousy as a weapon. Someone who is aware of and honest about what they want. Someone who can communicate their wants and desires without fear of judgement. Someone who can speak my love language; Physical Touch & Words of Affirmation. Someone who can enjoy both stimulating conversation and comfortable silence. Someone with some mental health awareness. Someone who does not measure a person by their bank account. Someone who recognizes there is more to life than cultural and societal proclivities. Someone who is faithful and loyal, and who would be straight forward of their faithfulness or loyalty ever wavered. Someone who does not expect me to change my life in any other way than I am already pursuing.

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