Yajjay: Hopeless romantic that takes nothing for granted.

Got to many problems I already know,
so to cope I numb it all right through my nose
doing a little to much just hope I don't overdose.
yeah sometimes the truth I choose to sugarcoat,
Cuz I do a lot of fucked up things even when i shouldn't tho.
But it is what it is we all know this,
depressions a b*tch but I got no slits on my wrists,
was always a misfit but I kept it hidden just to fit in
I'll admit it wrong decision don't ever let anyone stop you from being different,
Or say your not gifted and break your vision,
It's your life so you better be the only one who lives it.
Despite my lack of innocence I keep living mine,
this race I think I'm winning it but I'm little blind,
Eyes wide as I keep looking for that finish line,
Can't see my hourglass just hope I'm not running out of time.
Cuz I keep running out of my mind,
No ride or die I just ride to survive
Call me Jonny cash cuz i walk this fucking line,
f*ck it I'll just do another line,
close my eyes as i get lost in these rhymes.
I slice and I dice with these words that I write,
fight like a knight and this pen is my knife.
Strike with the tip let this ink fill the paper,
writing you a image of my life my own illustrator,
never finish anything a true procrastinator
Never finish editing just save it for later.
Been a player been a hater but never an imitator,
The top is where I'm going on my private elevator,
I know my words are like whispers compared to my behavior,
Keep shooting for the moon but no bullets left in the chamber.
So I wait here but I'm no waiter,
even tho I'm not everyone's
Always asking for favors.
And I just say yes cuz that's just who I am I guess,
I'm far from the best but I'm nothing like the rest.
I'm my own person with my own purpose,
the best way i can word it is I'm divergent.
I'm brave peaceful intelligent selfless and honest ,
candor abnegation Amity erudite and dauntless.
And I'm still here fighting for the factionless,
cuz I been in the mix and I know what it is and I know how it is to not have shit,
yeah life's a trip and I say f*ck that b*tch.
But I love that b*tch now ain't that a b*tch,
we hope and we wish the motions will switch,
a directional shift away from this cliff,
so we don't slip and can replace our grip
Cuz sometimes the road gets slim just like a tightrope,
at any given moment you could trip there your life goes.
And that's just how it goes gotta find a way to grow,
life is beautiful but there are thorns on that rose.
So be careful as you stop to smell the flowers,
Them sunny rays can quickly turn to showers,
seconds into minutes and minutes into hours,
cuz even the sweetest things eventually go sour.
And not a god damn thing is fair nothing's equally divided,
Just crimes and violence and a bunch of lies truths hide in.
Is it fate or luck that controlled the outcome of all the choices we decided,
I'm not sure but I do know just like coins everybody's two sided.
So flip it and just hope for the best,
Life's nothing but a quest full of test,
It can be complicated but its not that complexed,
Just fulfill your obligations and move onto the next
Don't sit with anticipation and finally accept,
Life is just an infatuation cuz our real purpose is death.
So f*ck a whoa is me and don't feed into greed.
Between the lines is where you gotta read,
and think thoroughly before you pick a team,
but I'll stay neutral cuz this is me

A Female who sees me for me and accepts me for my past and faults. Who I can talk with and understand and connect with on a deeper level and vice versa.

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