RookieRocker69: So be it. I'll go where you go no matter how dark the path

"Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift." I'm a retired veteran and Steamfitter. I have a band and play several instruments. {Guitar and harmonica are my FAV.} I write and record music. And own a small underground recording studio where I help others hear their dreams. I'm living a life now..I didn't know I could have. After years of playing "keeping up with the Jones" and fighting to live by an old school moral code...I guess I only had?!? While you lived a double life..and fucked anything you could have. I was in a sand box. HOT AS f*ck! Still being true and representing you. Dogging bullets from towel heads...Little did I know. That when I returned home..my life's real lessons would begin. Constantly being told I'm a toxic male just because I know how to turn a wrench. Because I'm WOKE not Broke. Sorry, did I set your anxiety off. Are you going top have a panic attack. Do you need a time out?? Got a stress card you need to wave in the air. You can't hear what I say..because you don't like the way "it was said" even though the words are the same and the message is true..the way it was delivered butt hurt you!! Because I'll DOT your eye if you tell a mom joke. Shame on you. I am who I am. Its not my fault Your Daddy didn't teach you to set your feelings aside..and be a man. And f*ck you...I gave it all to uncle SAM..Jumped out of perfectly good aircraft. Been shot, stabbed, blown up, and patched back together again. I identify with frankinstien. Two ugly dues that were sewn back together to form who I am. Tough on the outside...on the inside..just wanting to find love that won't expose who I really am. A man full of hope to find a woman he can trust again. But full of fear that there's been to many mistakes..and mind fucks to start again. So.. pop goes the cork and let the chain smoking begin. And I'll pour whiskey over my heart until I get the guts to ask you out again. My worldly travels lead me to carry only top-shelf shit. Kickstart my heart is no joke to me. Most of my friends are in the ground and dead..my hearts been jumped started so many times my doc. says..that's it for me. But try these new pills..they'll help...you'll see. FU 2..not for me. Even while in the party scene..I stayed true..never PnP. My life's half gone and i'm realizing..I haven't had any fun..especially sexually. I'm the type of guy that needs to bond. With one instrument and I need the same. Because playing more than one at a time...can become most confusing..and likely to hurt or damage a string. I'm starting to think that nobody cares. Maybe I should quit chasing a dream...maybe all i'm good for is a hook up or some pnp. Maybe a good f*ck is what i should be known to be? Its not what I would choose first..nothing beats that first kiss that started as best friends.,,my old school morals showing again..have left me single and alone. Do we f*ck,,fight,,bust an 8 Ball,,,its been so long I don't know where to begin. My last couple dates all i did was offend. No..I don't need to know if you shave down below. When your menstrual cycle starts, and if you like to blow. Guess that made you all mad...guess i'm not a man. I don't want to know nothing about TOP or BOTTOM. Are you bi..or a lesbian. Did you used to be a man..polly..or vegan. If you like to choke or throat...WTF...are these labels..I don't even know who I am. f*ck..I just want a woman. I need a friend! No labels no judgment. I'm just an old fashioned man. A hairy chest for your hand. I'm Just trying learning to go with the flow..I'm to real at times...I'm loyal AF..but I'm about done with this dog and pony show...is there anything real?? Is that all you really want...the back seat of my Harley..and a hot c*ck?

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